what a difference in a year

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A year ago, I was packing a truck, and then having a delightful drive across country with azure_armand and his dad and Oblivious.

Somehow, in that year, we successfully moved, got married, bought a place, survived our first winter back in Minnesota, and I got my dream job. We got involved in local creative things that make us happy. Not everything is perfect -- azure_armand could still use a job, for example -- but many things are good. I feel like we accomplished far more than it seemed reasonable to hope.

...

I started writing this entry to vent about stress, about how I take on too much and then get overwhelmed and freak out. About how I like to be busy, but the time before CONvergence always seems to descend into a maelstrom of anxiety and high-but-not-high-enough productivity. Last night I was thinking about whether this tendency to overcommitment is a really serious problem, or if I just need to practice saying "No" a little more often.

But then I thought about last year, and how much easier this year is, and how good things are, and it put it all into perspective.

... Huh. I think that's what journaling is supposed to do.

Comments

[star5.livejournal.com]

it can be hard to balance the nos and yeses. i know if i don't say yes to some things then i end up not pushing myself enough, but i also know if i say yes too much i go crazy. trying to get better at the balance and trying to be more aware! perspective is good.

good luck with all you're doing. i hope some of our con relax time overlaps and we get to enjoy some of the results of our hard work together!

[birdfigment.livejournal.com]

Yeah, if I didn't get involved in anything I would be depressed and disappointed in myself. Being busy and involved makes me happy! I just have to watch out for the balance of nos and yeses.

I look forward to seeing you at con! I'm sure we'll overlap a little at least.